really this is not ME

i'm bored being fake,
i'm bored being hurt,
hurt not by others but by my self.
this pain was on the top.
when all people do not believe in me and not on my side.
actually, this is what you waiting for.
but, i think for too long.

when i began to realize.
it's too late for me and you.
the sickest part is you are tired of waiting.
it doesn't matter, because this is my risk.
risk being slow.

i know the story from some people
you do not have to feel bad for me
because not many people that can last a long time to wait for someone
who does not have a satisfactory answer
i can understand, i can not demanding you
this is your choice and i appreciate it


but it hurt so much, and i can't take it anymore.
i'm just scared, this think should be good
but, because the pain it so really hurt me.
i do not say it well
which finally change everything


this is only the beginning.
pain in the heart must be passed.
the question is, how long?
how long for me to always think.
whether you are still the best in this situation
and in the future, you will still always be with me.
i'm tired to think


for now, all that  makes you happy.
i would love it too